school's finally over.
and for some reason,
everything/ everyone feels so seperated.
feel like school's the only thing
that brings us togther now compared to before.
where we were driven by friendship
everyone's just busy with their own lives
including my own.


i miss gretel, pam pam, xin xin,
grace grace, gor liap, ming ming,
vanda, kim, asya,mel mel.

i think i should plan an outing.
that should do the trick.

night world.

EXAMS BE GONE LIKE NOW!~

i hate the feeling of useless-ness
being unworthy, and of pretty much no importance.

sometimes i wish i could
tear you apart
break you down
tumble you in dettol
drown your heart in a chemical çalled love
and then assemble you again.

just do me a favour and please just not care.

i don't need to be called the obnoxious one.
the selfish one, the uncaring one, the stupid useless hopeless one.

---
on a side note.

i really really really
would love for these stuff to drop on my lap like now.
the new canon digi
newurbanmale vouchers
better yet! the n.u.m. bag!
topshop voucher card
money!
my crocs or havanna thong slippers.

writer's block!
unblock!
(jumps and tries hard to make writer's block in brain to come out)

i'm tired.
i want holidays.
i need holiday.
exams hury end.

i've been quiet.
really quiet.
i just don't feel like talking.
and i hope you understand.

with love,
mellie

i know it's been ages like ages
since i last blogged.
but school's been too busy, i've been too drained.
physical, mental, emotional.
you name it, i felt it.
anyways, yesterday was a blast!!!
with company of grace, T jan, lindis, gretel and van.
we hard rocked.food was awesome.
played a little trick on van.=))
went drinking after that, i swear we were,
idiots, laughed the night away.

haven't done this in a long time.
but it was fun.=))

i'm down with a flu!
stupid stuffy flu.

exams are here.
alot of unfinished assignments,
wonder if i'm prepared at all.

oh wells, have a good weekend you guys!

i missed school again.
i messed up again.
why did i mess up so bad?
i have to be so hard on myself.
if not i'll never learn.

gretel.strangle me please.

i'm gonna now indulge myself
in chocolate ice cream.
and run for sace dance later.

i haven't been around for ages.
please pardon my hiatus.
but i've been busy.
too busy, too emotional, and too messed up.
please wait while i try to organize myself and my life.
gretel has just been such a doll.=))
here's the pictures that i owe you guys.
my bad.








holiday plans are underway.
gretel. up for it?

i went for a manicure to distress.
(but it didn't exactly work)
i wanna go shopping!
retail therapy!
(i'm not a bimbo NOR a BIM BIM ok)
i wanna cut my hair.
do something with myself!

Happiness doesn't make us,
rather we make happiness.
I've been a pretty responsible this week.
(aside from not paying my bills)
I've been going to school everyday.
doing my best for each lesson.
pretty satisfied about it.


many performances to watch!
i can hardly wait!x)

i couldn't sleep.
so i decided to blog.
i haven't blogged in ages.
i was busy, got tired and thus lazy.

CNY was not bad,
despite the little incident that happen.
but nevertheless i enjoyed myself.

fell sick shortly after.
got dirty look from a certain somone
who didn't believe or rather couldn't be bothered
to realise or see that i really am.
_________ must be having a bitch fit or something.

valentine date with gretel on thursday!x)
i can hardly wait!x)

van thinks that i'm stressed.
she says she sees symptoms.-.-"
---
some pictures before i go







night world

Quiz for valentine's day!

1.Do you like anyone?
- like?

2. Are you flirty:
- no.

3. Are you a player?
- No.

4. Would you get back together with any
of your ex's?
- depends

5. Have you ever kissed anyone on your
top friends?
- yes?

6. Do you want a valentine?:
- i have one!x)

7. Have you slept over at the opposite
sex's house?:
- Never!

8. Do you prefer group dates or single
ones?
- what's that?

9. Would you kiss light or makeout
- what's that?

10. Do you like cuddling up while
watching a movie?
- YES!

11. Any plans for valentines day?:
- yes?

12. What's the best valentines day
present for a girl?
- Surprises.

13. For a guy?
- there is such a thing as a guy?

14. Are you single or taken?
- must i answer?
---
school's been inconsistant
but nevertheless better than last semester.
did a mani with pilar today!
mine's already rotting.haha.

cny is around the corner,
and i can't explain/ describe to you
how annoying, disturbing and traumarizing cny music is.
it kills the youth in me!
(melts away)

anyway night!

I'm FRUSTRATED WITH MYSELF!
can i go die?
give me some skills, of dying without pain!
kthanxbai!

ok after thinking i don't think i want to die.
=X, van will kill me, grace will dig me out of my grave,
my folks will make sure i wake up to finish my unfinished business.
and gretel will not love me anymore.=((.

I want to be alive!
alive i tell you!
alive!!

The long awaited photos that
i've been meaning to publish
goodness it felt like i was holding my pee.
while finding for someone with a cable.
(random)

outing yesterday with grace grace, gloria
terence, evan, alvin, van van and myself.
watched the house, but it wasn't very good though.
i still prefer body #19.
but the blood in the house looked more real.
"BUNDUNG!.." haha.






















i gotta run, gott go work.
sorry i got lazy to update titles.
but ah, you know the regulars.=))

"Hope dangles on a string
like a slow spinning redemption."

FUCK.

I just wanna run away right now.
i think i'm quite messed up again.
can i go clubbing?
maybe i should just bottle a little more and then
when i'm filled to the brim,
i should go clubbing.=))

I LOVE TODAY!

AND I LOVE GRETEL FOR ALWAYS BEING THERE!
(pictures will be up soon)

SEE YOU GUYS TOMORROW!x)

Olivia Ong- A Girl Meets Bossanova
i love her songs.
i'm trying to find her CD
Someone tell me if you spot her CD
absolutely love her voice,
after shou yi played it in the studio.
(stay a little longer at theabnormalmajority to hear her soothing voice)

dance works practice starts this week.
i'm gonna be busy,
i guess it's a good thing i'm kept busy.
time will pass by faster.

”Memory is a way of holding on to the things you love,
the things you are, the things you never want to lose.”
-Kevin Arnold

i feel like a jerk for not going to school.
i feel irresponsible, and rebel-ish.
and it's very bad, but i am going to school tomorrow.
I MUST. it's only the second week of school.
can i bang my head against the wall?

van's left for camp, and will only be back
in about 5 months, but short term, she'll be back this friday.
and i can't wait.=))

i smell brief scents of you,
i miss you.